I have never truly faced my issues until recently. I have swept the dirt under the rug, you see.. but I have been doing this for about 18 years and it is time I finally talk about it.
Mental health is an on-going issue and for the most part, silent. Perhaps the stigma on emotions being a sign of weakness or that it is an uncomfortable topic – but because I refuse to let it beat me, I refuse to stay silent.
My friends and family describe me as: genuine, caring, warm, passionate, generous and jovial. While these highlight a part of me, there is a side that I haven’t been open about.
Something you may not know about me is that I have lived with depression almost my entire life. The first depressive thoughts I had were when I was 11. The first time I almost took my own life was when I was 17. The adult me often reflects on these melancholic times and how alone I felt. What you see on my social media now is the stark opposite to the girl who had once searched methods on how to end her life.
Fast forward a decade later and life tested me more than this year. Feelings of anxiety, depression and suicide had come back. It was like everything around me was grey and muted. Everything moved in slow motion. I felt numb. I looked numb. Some days I couldn’t get out of bed, some days I cried myself to sleep, some days I wish I didn’t wake up.
But I am here. I am no longer silent.
I am not asking for pity, nor am I asking for attention. I am simply shedding light on how humanity is often looked over. It does not cost to be kind. It does not cost to show you care.
Break the silence. Let that person know “you are not alone.” Listen. Show some understanding. Express your compassion.
Life is a road of ups and downs, and if your coping mechanisms and techniques outweigh your negative thoughts – you will be okay. I promise you! Remember to breathe and think that you, in this moment, are nothing short of a miracle. Mind, body and soul, working together harmoniously.
Thank you for reading my post and I hope this has helped if you or someone you know is going through a difficult time. Please visit my friend @softpastelgrey for another insight on this topic.
Love & light x
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The more people talk, the better. Mental health is too important to be overlooked, or trivialised. Thank you for being here and sharing your story. It warms up my heart that after all that you’ve been through, you’ve kept a part of you that still whispers about hope.
I wish you everything good. Have a wonderful day.
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